I'm sorry you're struggling tonight. I understand that nagging feeling that won't go away until you do something about it and then the complete shame and disappointment you feel afterwards. It's been hard to work on and I'm glad I have people I can talk to about it. If you can look at it this way (which my dietitian has helped me do), you were able to stop yourself during your binge which is a huge deal. Recognize that as a milestone. Also, if you can, set a timer and ask yourself what you need emotionally that may help. If you feel you can go without the rest of the binge then great. If it is to finish your binge, try not to judge yourself. I've found, the more time I can put between myself and my binges has helped but I still binge which is hard. I don't want to get super "you should do" which I'm afraid I might have :-(. All I'm really trying to say is, I know how you feel and I'm really sorry because it's a miserable place to be. It also feels really lonely and if you ever feel like you want someone to just vent to, I'm here, because I don't want anyone to ever feel alone. You are strong!