First of all, let me give you credit for admitting this. That is the first step. I understand it is not something easy. My husband is diagnosed with a personality disorder with narcissism. Hope I spelled that right. He lies all the time about everything, as I read it is a knee-jerk reaction. He is in denial though. I don't know how to help him. We have custody of his children and I have two at home and we have a baby on the way. I do have bipolar disorder and am not on as many meds, however, his lying and behavior is out of control and it is all blamed on me all the time. The mood swings are horrible. Sorry to be talking about my situation, when you are obviously looking for help. You need counseling. I am just learning more about this disorder and coming clean is the first step. I applaud you!!!! Try getting some help. To a person who is an open book and very truthful, this could ruin any type of serious relationship you have. And in my opinion, anybody willing to admit they have issues, is more than deserving of a good life. I wish you the best and keep us posted as to your situation. You are not alone with your disorder, you would be surprised the amount of information there is available to you. Try to think before you lie; are you just trying not to hurt someone's feelings or just flat out lying. The truth always prevails, it will come from inside of you now that you are aware of it. Good luck