Hi DaX

Just because those things, as hard as they may be, have happened don't make you a terrible person
And we know, for a fact, that bad things happen to good people, right?!
But you know she, or the mistakes others may have made, doesn't/don't deserve to hurt you so badly. You're a much better than the person she is and you're much more than the mistakes others might have made
I do know it must be really hard right now, but remember that things can get better.........and there are still plenty of people who really care about you on here.
It's OK if you're feeling weak with everything you've gone through and are going through, most people would feel weak in your circumstances, but we're here for you, in finding that great inner strength which I know is in there

Alison