Perna:
I am married and live with my husband. I have daily contact with my upstairs neighbors who happen to be long-time friends of ours, so I do get quite a bit of contact. My nightly walks began several months ago as my own brand of therapy to fight back against my agoraphobia because I got tired of being a prisoner of it. The first week or two was shakey as expected, but after that I was walking twice a night for thirty minutes alone with no problems. It wasn't until this past month that these episodes began without warning. Now, I am forced to wait until either my husband or one of the neighbors are available to accompany on my walks and am trying not to look at it as a sign of defeat... just as a temporary down.

dalila:
I'm not allowed to have dogs where I live, but I do have two cats who sometimes do a good job of keeping me grounded. However, these recent episodes have been pretty strong that even their feline grace can't seem to assist me. Nonetheless, I do notice they are never far when an episode happens while I am in my home as if they know I need them.

After speaking with my pdoc yesterday, he has made an adjustment to my medication array in the hopes to alleviate these episodes. He believes this is just part of the territory of PTSD clashing swords with my BPD along with an anniversary date of a trauma coming up as well. I have no reason to doubt him as I trust my pdoc and he has yet to steer me in the wrong direction... the man has truly been helpful. I also see my therapist on Tuesday, so I will get the chance to talk out the most recent episode about Jim.