Thanks for the replies I'm doing fine now, my T is a professional, surely she isn't holding grudges against me only because I want to leave, and if it's like this, hypothetically speaking, it's her problem and not mine. Next time I want to tell her I want to quit, but not quit therapy, I want to continue and search another T. I think I wasn't clear about this with her, she thought I wanted to quit therapy forever, that I didnt want to work on my issues.