Echoes, I know all that. My problem is that I can't feel that way. Everyone keeps telling me the same thing but in a different way. What I'm saying is I don't want to feel like my life is in danger everytime someone disagrees with me. To me it feels like a death and I don't know why! I feel so shakey inside thinking about this topic now! I am afraid that I am never going to get past it. I want to be able to smile at someone with an interested look and ask why they feel this way or that. Instead of feeling like I've just been shot and need to run for cover. IT IS NOT FUN!

I give up