How do I know if my problems are actually from mental illness or if I'm just making them up to get attention? I do want my friends to care about me but whenever I brought up some of my problems I would do it jokeingly as to not scare them.
I have told 3 people seriously about my problems, 2 people I know now well and a councerler. But what if how I act is the attention seeking behaviour? My loud personality around friends to keep the spotlight on me and the jealousy/anger I get when they don't pay attention to me enough when I want it, is it manipulative? Should I just end all my relationships to save them the trouble of dealing with me?
Sorry for the incoherent ramble