Hi,
I am a 23 year old female (virgin) with an irrational fear of sexual intercourse, just penetration. I am perfectly ok with kissing, even giving oral sex if I was in the situation but I get anxious at the thought of receiving oral or penetrative sex. I don't know where this comes from and would like to get some ideas as to where it might and how to combat it, as I don't want it to destroy a future relationship should it ever happen. I was in a situation with a guy I really liked and we were about to have sex but I immediately couldn't go through with it, so we did other things fully clothed. It was the immediate awkward feeling at the thought of traditional sex.
It isn't the pain that scares me, it is more the awkwardness I feel at the thought of laying there having sex with a guy. I find it terribly embarrassing and I'm unsure why - so in summary it is the fact I feel extremely awkward about vaginal sex that is scaring me off it indefinitely.

Any ideas?

Thanks