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Originally Posted by justafriend306
I agree, the fact you are able to acknowledge it suggests to me this is a personality trait. Is this compulsive behavior? I myself in public situations want validation. I catch myself drawing things out into stories. I can't help doing this. I mentally kick myself afterwards. I suppose this falls into the category of attention seeking. I don't feel it is part of my mental illness. I think it stems from the fact that for the first 45 years of my life I was stifled and ignorred.
Again, are you aware of this as it happens? Do you make a conscious decision to do this or is it something you are compelled to do?
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I actually dont recognize my behavior in the moment, even when I get annoyed at them and go bigger in my behavior i dont recognize it, it isnt til later on do i think about my behavior during the day and regret it and hit a low point where i start going into a cycle of paranoia about my friends. I can make the conscious decision to cut out really harmful behavior (i.e I nearly strangled a friend ruff housing with him so i stopped doing that) I hope this makes sense.