When I was 15 I started to date a guy ,D. He was going to church and asked me to go with him. So I went I feel in love with the way it made me feel and the people. It was a big part of our relationship. On my 16th birthday he raped and beat me, the next day I was baptized. I didn't tell anyone about the rape until months later, when I ended the relationship. Our youth minister said I could either talk to D about it one on one or I had to leave the church. I left. I felt hurt by this. I don't know what to believe. For years I've wondered if I made the right choice in leaving. For years I was angry that it happened and blamed God. It's been almost 7 years since the rape. I'm ready to move on and grow. But I'm not sure if I can believe in God or not. I don't know where to turn to, or what to believe.