well, i still feel silly about it... cause i dunno if i have D.I.D. or not... i mean, i dont even know if what is happening to me is dissociation or not! (my therapist says i dissociate alot)

but all the clues are pointing towards d.i.d.

its just really confusing and scary because i dunno what to expect..

I just feel like there is this part of me that is like the eye... a gate keeper? but i feel like the eye... or the eye is present always... watching, monitoring... working computations and figuring out how much i can handle... then it zooms in on particular triggers... or all triggers... or maybe there is more than one eye...

i dunno, it doesnt make sense i know...

i just keep sensing it...