You sound like me/us. Through being co-con.....we are always aware like the lights never go out....but whoever is present owns the conscious and every memory and experience stays with the one that was out which in a way feels like our memory banks are wiped clean while looking through a different set of eyes.

Loss time is not noticeable if one was to actually look at the details. Missing memories equates to time loss. Sometimes it feels like I'm not in control of the body because it behaves and does things that are so not me, like the way we sit, other body movement, noises and the hands doing things on it's own.

Like I can feel our sexual alter do body movements and her lusts feels our soul like right now. I'm more the intellectual one that reports but she took control of our body as to express my point. I just sound like a distant voice in our head dictatiting to a typing hand.

We are not really co-con with her, and it's freaky just thinking that another seperate conscious exists that has it's own agenda.

I hope this helps somewhat at least in letting you know that you are not alone. We've known this all our life but refused to acknowledge it of late. Now we are in full acceptance system wide. Non-acceptance produces fear, anxiety, stress, nervousness, and doubt. It took us a year since The Awakening to acceptance where we realize that this has always been the way it's been.