I appreciate all the thoughtful responses and suggestions. Hopefully I'll answer each one. I tried to search but can't seem to find the person who fits the criteria. At least not on PsychologyToday. I feel a little better doing it rather bthan just thinking about doing it. I don't know if I will say anything to my T or not. Yes, I am conflicted about the whole situation. We're supposed to a mindfulness exercise with a raisin on Wednesday! I want to be able to switch gears but I may discover I'm angry with T and will have to discuss it. She's so good at noticing my feelins. I can't hide them from her. I'm unsettled about these issues.