thanks
im just scared of losing control, blacking out... dont want anyone to be upset with me... and hurt me... or cause any problems like before...

i've blacked out before and when i came back i was cursing a friend out and throwing things... it was scary...

and i felt so bad, like really bad... i still feel bad about it and my friend probably thinks im a lunatic...

dunno what happened, or why it happened... thought we were having a pleasant conversation but i guess something triggered me severely

im just scared of losing control like that and dont want to get hurt or have any problems... Or hurt anyone else

thought that maybe if i help this part of me then maybe it can help me, like helping me understand whats wrong or what it is im experiencing so that i can get rid of denial...