For me, it's wanting someone to know I've done something potentially bad, but accepting me anyway. My parents were hard on me when I made mistakes, so I saw them as this thing that forever changed who I was, that tarnished my image forever in that person's eyes. So I think with this, I do something like the Googling, and then I need to know if I still accepted and forgiven. And to feel that it won't change how I'm viewed. MC has said in the past that it's "testing," which kids/teens do to their parents. Like for a toddler, "Will you still love me if I throw my food across the room?" For a teen, it's more like, "If I tell you I hate you, will you still accept and love me?" Hope that makes sense.