Sister, I feel like I've got everyone afraid to add a comment now incase I get even more mad/frustrated LOL!. In response to your statement, yes proberbly I am also angry that my internal state was triggered. I think it all ties in together, and actually I so want me and T to disconnect some more because I'm being force to find my connectedness inside of me at this moment. I am being forced to rely on my own sense of right and wrong for me. I am being forced to realise that not everyone is going to make my life go smoothly and I am being forced to find a way to soothe myself and build my own self worth. I pity T on monday, I so want to get right into this subject BIG TIME! I can feel my old beliefs crumbling as I talk and argue and scream and cry about this! I want freedom from the chains of sameness that hold me!