I know your viewpoint so I'm answering for all your posts. You're probably right, and I do want to respect my T but it's like the emailing. I keep doing it when I need to. I don't need to hold T's hand. I chose when I could that up. If T will talk with me about the reasons and not shut me down like last session maybe I won't do it. But she not forbid me to try to look him up. That is weird. She said go ahead! So someone was right in saying it's about what she will volunteer, but she can't stop me from doing what I want online. I don't know, Chris. I'm conflicted about it.