Thank you for the detailed insight Bill.

Yes I guess I need to start somewhere although I'm usually the "loser" when it's small things too. "No I don't want more food." Then my dad insists I eat more and forces another piece of meat into my bowl. Silly things like that, do they help build confidence even if nothing happens when I speak up?

Ok, I also figured I should just focus on my exam and not engage her in such a difficult conversation. Her behavior was just distracting me a lot, but if I am able to end the conversation more quickly, I think this approach would work.

What I meant by "not ok" is they have never seen how depression has affected me. They never witnessed me crying so hard to the point I couldn't breathe. They never knew I went to see a therapist for a year. They never understood how I hit rock bottom or how I was able to recover from the fall and become functional again. So they essentially don't understand how I can be triggered by certain things they say -- hence they think I'm doing perfectly fine when I actually have to struggle to control my depressed emotions.

Right now I occasionally have suicidal thoughts, but it has gotten nowhere close to the pervasiveness that it used to be. Please don't worry about me, I don't have any suicidal intentions. I am doing much much better than I used to be.