He left, we haven't been getting along, I know this, but he knew that i needed him here right now, to help with the kids and to keep me grounded. He up and left last night, went to his gf I am sure........I knew he was messing around, but with everything I am feeling right now, my T thought if I could just stick it out with him here, and get past this crisis then work on our marriage.......but he did'nt give me the chance, he just left last night.......I am an idiot for letting him stay here, I should never of let anything happen......failure at everything.......now he leaves, the kids need him.......I can't do this.........what else can go wrong.......why does everything happen all at once........I emailed my T and told him last night.......he emailed back and told me it is all him.......he broke the vow, it isn't me........it is me!!! I cannot do anything