honey you have to keep trying... because there is no other choice... allow yourself to feel overwhelmed... maybe you are... wouldn't that be normal? depression has reasons sometimes... what are they, take them one by one and do what you can... use the courage to change poem:

God grant me the courage to change the things i can
the serenity to accept the things i can't
the wisdom to know the difference...

a number of us are hurting right now... come join us... we'll get thru this together... has T called yet?