I lost count....all the hospitalizations were between 1995 - 2002. The first ones when they were trying to figure out what my Dx was were 1 month long 2 times. they couldn't figure out how someone with no history of ANY MI before the age of 42 could suddenly be so depressed after loosing my engineering career. Each hospitalization was after a suicide attempt. That period of my life is really a black hole for me. I only remember bits & pieces of what happened during those years. There had to have been at least 20 psych hospital stays. Had more with the medical & anorexia.

It's been interesting recovery after I finally left my bad marriage. Looking back I realized that the OD's & hospital stays we're my way of escaping the bad marriage I felt totally trapped it....can't believe that none of the pdocs or psychologists got it or helped me see what was happening. Have healed these last 9 years after leaving my H & moving 2100 miles away where I have been safe & have found wonderful people who surround my life. Doubt I would ever consider marriage again though. I love my little 10 acre farm all to myself & my dogs.