Thank you for the information. He was originally diagnosed with depressive disorder, s/p traumatic stress disorder. He also has hemochromotosis which has eaten away some of the mylen in his brain. This is where I thought the original problem was coming from. We both see the same doctor, though he hasn't been there because he has been working so much. I have known her for 7 years. I have had emergency appts lately due to his behaviors. I believe that if I wasn't pregnant, it could possibly turn violent. Of course he blames everything on my bipolar disorder. But I have calmed down so much over the years and actually got much better when he came into my life. But I guess that was the reeling in portion of the relationship. I am currently disable due to my condition and with twins with ADHD ODD and bipolar disorder, the doctor doesn't send me back to work because she is afraid I may go over the edge. That's if he doesn't send me there first. I bring social security into the house in addition to $300.00/wk child support, I make out pretty well for a stay at home mom as we have no child care bills and I am always available to handle the sick kids, when schools out etc. I pay all the bills. But he says he works his @#$ off, and this is true he works very hard at work. But since he is so self-centered, I am lonely. I talk to kids during the day or noone. I am involved with the PTA. That is helpful sometimes. I think the doctor is going to talk to him next time he goes, the first saturday in December (if he doesn't cancel again). I am currently living day to day. I could never talk to his family. He has no relationship with his brother 20 years his senior, his mother is just like him, and his dad died when he was 7 years old. I have to put some of this blame on his mom, she says stuff such as "I should have flushed you down the toilet when you were born, like I wanted to". She had a mental health admission for post partum depression. They have a on again off again relationship. They talk for a few months then don't talk for like six months. She tried putting me down as well, he has always stuck up for me. But recently this relationship has been rekindled as she had cancer removed. All he ever wanted was her to love him, she has twisted way of showing it. I believe his issues are both hereditary and a poor upbringing. My twins father is a jerk, that is putting it mild. They love my husband like a dad. He was an excellent father, just recently he has been changing. He had a lot of trouble dealing with his natural son's issues of SAD, ADD and some other things. His son doesn't meet his expectation, so he lies and pumps the poor child up. I know the person he can be or I thought I did. He had been very caring and loving, but I am afraid that was the act. That's how I got hooked. I guess the next few months will be telling and will point me in the right direction. But we have custody of his stepchildren. I love them as if they were mine, that is my dilemma, the children. My boys did so much better with him around and where his ex-wife has no maternal instincts, I took over. I care for them in every way while they both work. I feel used. I don't know what to believe, what reality is anymore. I did have a questions, I heard this can get worse, can it???? Btw, I was on that link one of you sent me already. I have been researching this like mad. My doc said a mood stabilizer would help somewhat. but he has to admit to the problem and with his ego being as big as the universe, I doubt that will happen. Day by day I am taking it. I can admit I am not perfect. I do have problems. But they are getting now worse because of him. I am rambling because other than discussing some things with my doc and mother, I feel very alone. Of course, I tried telling him I felt lonely but he doesn't care. It doesn't pertain to him at this time. Thanks for the info though it's not the best news, it's reality, facing reality is a difficult thing to do. I plan to back off as much as possible and just live my own life (in the same house) and see where it goes. Btw, he has threatened me with divorce because stupid me threatened to leave him...which my doctor now tells me I never should have done. Don't do or say anything that I can't follow through with and I am not ready today to leave yet. Again, thanks for listening.