I just realized after this coming mondays visit I wont see T for 2 weeks or more. Her surgery is this coming wednesday and she's taking the next week off. Depending on when my next app. is it'll be 2 weeks exact or a little more the next week.

I'm so so scared guys, I'm crying. How will I cope? With my T not there? What will I do when I'm crying and life has nothing to give me? I can't call her...no thing....

I'm also really worried about her surgery..I love T so much...
She's such a soldier in my army...an Army of one...her....

What will I do....=(((((( No T for 2 weeks...My T,...this T....she's so special, how will....how can I?...i pray badly she tells me something on Monday that can stick in my head through those 2 weeks...but god....I"ll miss her.......

Dustin