Hello all. Here is a quick background on me. I am a 35 y/o female with history of trauma as a young child. I started using drugs at the age of 12 and being very promiscuous. Drugs and sex were not my only way of escaping. I loved cleaning and started cleaning the bathrooms w/o being asked at the age of 13. I would scrub the floors and shower. Sometimes after putting my clothes away, I would think about how they were not placed perfectly in the drawer and this would keep me up at night until I fixed it. I developed an ED (bulimia) when I was about 20. Stopped drugs around 19, bulimia stopped around 30, started drinking to excess at about 26.

I was diagnosed wth depression, then OCD, then ADHD, and now bipolar. They jjust keep switching the diagnosis. I do not think that I had OCD.

Anyway, I am trying to quit alcohol and I am taking the medications as prescribed but I am just not sure I have bipolar.

My main complaints are depression and racing thoughts. I think that sometimes the racing thoughts cause the depression. I cannot get my brain to quiet down. It is so hard to concentrate on anything. When I am feeling motivated, I think that I am going to change everything about my life. I will eat 100% paleo, workout everyday, meditate everyday, all chores done, journal daily, track food, think about why I am grateful everyday, no more negative talk. I make lists and meal plans and check off each thing daily. I fail every time and then the next day I try again. After a while I get depressed and give up.

Those are the quick details. I thought that since you are living with bipolar that you may be able to help out and give me some information. Thanks in advance!