last time i posted in this forum would have been a long long time ago if ever. but tonight i have my razor out and have made a few scratches on my chest, cut my hair a bit. i have the razor in my hand and the reason i havent really used it yet is because im afraid if i do i will slit my wrists and i dont want to do that because i know the pain i would cause to my friends and family. what do i do? i have a cigarette i might smoke even though i hate smoking. especially if its not pot. i must add i will not kill myself. i couldnt do that to people who might be hurt by it. but i hurt right now.