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Originally Posted by yagr
Things are just things, you know...but there is this one thing, and I'm a bit embarrassed to say it even anonymously on a forum but here goes:
There's a stuffed animal that I sat down and talked to for fifteen minutes every night for thirty nights back a quarter of a century ago. I was trying to start a dialogue with a little alter who I knew was there but there had never been any co-consciousness. We broke through on the thirtieth day. We knew the stuffed animal wasn't her - but didn't know where to focus our conversation internally so having something external gave us something to focus on. Ever since then, she has come to think of that stuffie as the personification of her - a body she could imagine her own.
We know it isn't her per se, but we both have a lot invested in that idea and it brought us together - so it means an awful lot to both of us. Steal my car...I might just watch you drive off because really, it's just a thing and people are more important than things...but touch that stuffed animal and I don't trust what I would do.
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That is the most awesome response ever.
we have one little part who has been very badly triggered by the stuff that happened this year, but we haven't had the time or space of safety to get to her and help her yet. We felt the need to get something to help her in some way and we were drawn to a certain idea that we spent many hours looking for all over town. We eventually found it - a soft toy hedgehog that can curl up and stay curled up. it has been curled up in a ball since we got it and if we ever come close to uncurling it we just know it is the wrong thing to do. We sleep with it at night to keep it safe.
The little one has been much more contained since we got it. Next year when we get back we will take it to therapy sometime and find a way to uncurl it with t.