So I've been in the midst of strong maternal transference feelings towards my T for the last three months. At times it was very overwhelming and difficult. I did bring it up and we talked about it quite a bit over that time. Talking it out didn't feel like it did much to resolve it, to be honest. Anyway, last week I showed up for my appointment and my T said that she had another client booked for that time, and she had me down for the next slot (one hour later). She didn't apologize or anything, just asked me if I was okay waiting around for the hour until the time she had me scheduled for. What gets me is that I distinctly remember her booking the original time with me! I am OCD about this and always verbally confirm our time three times every time we book an appointment. Because I'm not assertive, somewhat timid, and tend to question myself a lot, I agreed to wait for the hour and gently said I didn't get why she had me down for another time (even though I KNEW I was right). She didn't apologize, giving me the distinct impression that she truly believed she had the right time and I was the one who was wrong.

Anyway, by the time I got into the room with her after waiting around for that extra hour, I was really annoyed and suddenly saw her in a completely different and negative light. Especially because I dealt with lots of traffic to make the original appointment time. I mean, I should have said something and then maybe she would have apologized, but I just couldn't bring myself to in the moment. I don't think she would have genuinely believed me because of the way she handled it in the first place. I felt off the entire session, and now I can definitely say that the attachment towards her feels non-existent. Throughout the whole session, I even had myself questioning why I felt anything for her in the first place! I don't plan on telling her any of this, because it seems pointless and if she apologized I wouldn't believe it to be genuine. If anything, it's a relief to not have positive feelings towards her at the moment.

I'm wondering if anyone else has similarly had an extreme reversal of their feelings towards their T? Did they evolve or change?