So I haven't been in therapy for quite some time and now it's PAINFULLY clear that I need to go back. I can't stress the pain thing enough as I've been having a really tough time of late.

I started looking for a new T (I didn't want to go back to the old one, I want a new perspective) and this process is horrible. It's bad enough if you have your pick of the field but my insurance company only lets me pick from doctors they have contracts with. This means only a small fraction of the local therapists are available to me.

To make matters worse, the insurance company site only lists the T's name and credentials; nothing about their practice. Well, as you all know, T's vary wildly in specialization/focus. I had to go through the list of names and do web based searches for articles, ads, etc. just to find this basic info.

I've found a woman who specializes in my disorders and I have made my initial appointment. Normally I would go in hoping to assess this person and determine if she's a good fit for me but honestly, after the four day ordeal of just finding her, I'm inclined to throw caution to the wind and just jump into it.

So that's my therapist drama at the moment. Now that the appointment is set I can begin fearing it with every fiber of my being.

Cyran0