Thanks everyone for the replies. Seems like a common theme is definitely revolving about hurt family members. I can really relate to that, as well. Going entirely out of my mind, always on my mind and is a big fear for me, too. Along with my illnesses never getting better. I'm going to lay mine out, in a weird way, I should add. If you respond to it, please be gentle in your response, as it is hard for me to go into. Trigger warning. Here it goes:

"You're so much like your dad." , "Aw, you look just like him." , "You know they fight because of you." , "You're the reason mom left." , "You realize you're nothing, right?" , "You can't be pissed at this family. You are this family. You're just like us." , "You'll never be anything more than what you are now: Selfish, spoiled, immature and stupid as hell" , "What's the point of doing that **** [homework], anyway? It's not like you'll make it to college" , "You know your a bad kid. The worst kid I've ever seen. I'll be surprised if you don't end up in prison by eighteen." , "You're worthless." , "If it wasn't for you, maybe I'd be happy!" , "It's your fault they were taken, you ****ing *****!"

I know this is a weird answer to my own question. So, a bit of background to offer is that a lot of these are quotes and some just insecurities I've told myself. To add it up, I'm not only scared I'll become my family, I'm scared I already am and that I've hurt people. I'm scared I hurt people everyday and that I'm no better than the things I hate so much. It scares me so bad that writing this has made it difficult to type because I'm shaking and trying not to go into a panic attack. I'm going to have to stop here.