I started working for a company where having a good attitude is a major job requirement.

So today I was in a training session and learned how the company donated 24 million dollars to charities in our state.

I wanted to ask the leader of the training session...why is it this company gives away 24 million dollars to charities and then pays its workers a wage so low it is impossible to live on?

I have been trying to be upbeat at this job...but this one fact threw me into darkness. I am trying to come out of my depression but constantly feel confronted by darkness.

I mean...I took this job knowing I will have to look for another job because this company's wages are so low. So why would I care about the company giving away 24 million dollars and bragging about it?

It is so hard to come out of depression because no matter how hard I try to be positive, the "truth" seems much more sinister.

Should I just fake a good attitude?