Hello , I've recently started dealing with intrusive thoughts and they started off with small really irrational things like for example because I ate a chocolate now i'm going to have a heart attack and die and while yes , i would get worked up about them I was always to get over them after a couple of days ... However sometime this year is when I started dealing with these thoughts more seriously, around February i started to think I didn't love my boyfriend anymore because a guy at work was flirting with me and I assumed that happened because I must've been flirtatious back and no longer wanted to be with my boyfriend . That obviously wasn't true because I was so distraught over the thought I cried nearly every day for a month over the potential thought of my boyfriend and I not being together long story short I finally got over it but the thought still lingers at times however now that I'm pregnant the thoughts have shifted towards my unborn child , I heard a baby crying in the store and grew really agitated keep in mind I was under a lot of stress at the moment holiday shopping and i'm quite pregnant but none the less I felt bad thinking now i'll grow impatient with my child and potentially hurt her , my biggest fear is my baby being hurt by either me or someone else , I wish i just could keep her in my belly forever and the closer I draw near to my due date the more scared and anxious I become . I know I am not what I think I am i've raised babies since I was 6 years old both boys and girls even baby sat for some extra money however now that its my child I can't seem to trust my own instincts , what if deep down i'm really a monster?This one is a weird one I get from time to time I saw a photo of a naked baby and found it wickedly inappropriate that the parent would feel comfortable posting that of their child on the internet for anyone to see , I started thinking omg what if some sicko on the internet is getting something off of this and then reading some comments people said only sicko's would sexualize such a picture and lets just say that sent me into a frenzy , now I believe I am capable of such an act I would literally kill myself and have thought about it because now I believe I am part of the sickos and I feel to protect my baby she'd be better off without me I usually calm down after awhile but it comes back often , it just depends on the day really if it's not me its someone else that's capable of hurting my baby ... I just am seeking advice to help cope better with my intrusive thoughts and try to do something else besides ritually checking and seeking reassurance . The logical side of me knows who I am but the other half that does this to me and puts me under a lot of unnecessary stress likes to lead me to believe otherwise . So with that said any advice from parents who deal with the same thing or just anyone in general who's gone through this and have successfully managed to conquer their thoughts are welcomed . Thanks