I am coming out of a deep depression of 18 months...and life often feels sharp and painful. I try to stay numb.

I was waiting for a bus tonight in the dark and a cold wind was blowing and I was thinking about how when I was depressed I would just stay in bed and never venture out...certainly not taking buses on windy cold nights. I saw another woman waiting and she seemed fine. I realized she was stronger than me in all ways because the night did not seem to bother her.

Is this normal?

I am not feeling happy or joyful...just not severely depression all the time. However, I really want to just stay numb.

If you had this experience can you tell how long it took to come out of that numbness?

I am not on any medications.