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Old Dec 29, 2016, 06:01 AM
Misssy2 Misssy2 is offline
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Originally Posted by Pinocchio46 View Post

I don’t feel sorry for myself, but when I think of that it makes me really sad.

I think the feeling for me would be MAD and SAD. I love how you were able to put this into words that you don't feel sorry for yourself. I am going thru a similar situation at 52. On Christmas sent "Merry Christmas" to some of my family members and although I got a reply back from ONE of them it was LATE in the day when Christmas was OVER...and I felt the same way...not sorry for myself but mad and sad.

Should I just give up on people altogether and concentrate on trying to follow my goals?

Well, not give up on people...but YES, follow your goals...be the best that you can be...you deserve to have fullfillment in life even thou it doesn't feel like you have ANY support. As life goes on you will meet people that will become friends or lovers and always care...and you can't put your life on hold while you wait for some companionship in your life....

How can I keep letting people into my life when it leaves me feeling like this? I felt better when my phone was off, I really thought when I turned it on I would see a message from some of these people, and I would know they cared.
You say you felt better when your phone was off...I understand that. I turned mine off on Christmas and kept looking at it and thinking "who cares, lol no-one cares that my phone is off" and I was able to move on with my day and try and focus on other things rather than my phone...I kept telling myself (I have to contiualy tell myself this) that I am a good person - like you are and it it THEIR FRIGIN LOSS.

I do know how you feel as I said I ws going thru a similar situation. It is very disheartening but we have to keep going because we deserve happiness...and I have learned that if I tell people that they are hurting me...sometimes that makes things better. I will be seeing one of those people today that did not text me back on X-mas and I will tell them I was sad....too.

You are not alone....I just want you to know that.
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