Thanks a lot for insights, emgreen, I really appreciate it a lot.

The thing is that I can refrain from about anything with logical thinking and a bit of self discipline. E.g. I feel like potato chips, but I say "no, totally unhealthy, it doesn't help me, it doesn't do anything, I'll have to work out for at least half an hour to compensate. No, I rather eat an apple now or just nothing."

But with the cigs it's different. I did all kind of things. Made a big excel sheet and calculated and listed all the things I could buy for the money.

Somehow I would feel ... guilty if I would stop. I really don't get it ...