Sunny weather, heart heavy
Bogged down with guilt, fear, anxiety.
Wishing I was someone else.
Hoping this stops soon
Really dreading therapy tomorrow,
Nothing to say, how will it help?
Can't change the past
How does one cope with it?
get over it they say
oh yeah, very easy to do.
Noone understands how this is.....
sadness in every beat of a broken heart.
loneliness saturated from early on....
Insecurity drains a soul.
Tears drown a heart.
Wishing for the next life/plane to be better
All sent here to learn lessons for next time around
Have I learned anything?
Questions questions, all pointless
If only this misery would lift
go away........
Don't know where to start
yes, within me, but where to begin?
find a light, something to grasp.
Day to day is a struggle.
Why was I ever put here?
To learn a lesson? may take up Buddhism......
Do they have the answers?
Am I so wrong for not having a certain God?
Am I so bad for not having a certain God?
Bewildered actually, totally confused.
Hiding away is not an answer, but that's what I feel like doing.
Sometimes I just feel useless, insignificant,
Worthless, a bind, in the way.....

Jin