Aw, Mickey. (Hugs)

Look, you were one of the first few people to interact with me here on PC. It meant a lot; still does. And yanno, I too have had that slightly wretched feeling of worrying that I was taking time, attention, and reassurance-energy away from other members who were going thru far more hell than was my alotted portion. My T told me to get over myself, lolol -- which I thought was singularly unhelpful at the time, hah.
Later on we talked about it a bit more, & she told me one of my Aspie-light issues was scolding myself for daring to have the FEELINGS I had... as tho I wasn't entitled to feel/react the way I do (internally; how I behave is a different kettle o'fish, naturally. ).

And she's absolutely right: We feel what we feel; we need what we need; and so long as we're conscious of that and taking steps to cope, it's all good.

Repression & self-blame is bad for the soul.

imo of course .

xo,
Chyia, exreemely glad you're here