Thank you for these insightful responses everyone. I appreciate the feedback. I will consider bringing it up at the next session. For whatever reason, I'm convinced it will serve no purpose other than to make her secretly resentful of me. I'm sure this speaks volumes about my trust issues, but it's the part of me that needed her off the "pedestal" - so I could stop obsessing about therapy - that is relieved by these new negative feelings. I can see how this is a valuable thing to explore, I just wish I could control my fears around doing so.
It's amazing to me how easy it is to lose sight of the fact that a T is a paid professional that one hires for a service. In my case, it seems to have very quickly revealed a power dynamic where I am often more concerned about my T's feelings than my own when I bring up things with her.
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