Running the tape back through my pre-diagnosis life, it took no convincing that I had bipolar disorder; in fact, it was almost a relief being diagnosed. I don't care for being bipolar, but I can now understand my moods, & realize that things (especially depressive episodes) will eventually pass. Before I understood the passing nature of depression I had more serious suicidal thoughts & pseudo-suicidal attempts. I haven't had those thoughts or felt a need to act on them in a long time.