I personally know this is far from the worst period in my life. In fact, objectively, this is probably one of the best in a lot of ways. Sometimes I'll see news reports, or read posts here on PC, regarding the terrible things that happen to people. And I realize how incredibly fortunate I've been by comparison. But I still get seriously disheartened realizing that my life is almost over & this is what I have to show for it.

I think at least part of the problem is that what I'm experiencing in the present is right here now. While, stuff that happened in the past, is just memories. I liken it to the difference between being in a storm versus watching one from a distance. Even if the storm one is in isn't the worst possible, it's going to seem more so than a more intense storm viewed from a distance... if that makes any sense... At least that's the way it seems to me...