I'm really struggling
The urge is so great
It is overwhelming
I can't go out and have a smoke...I quit
There goes that distraction/ stress relief
I have stitches in my shoulder
I need to cut them out
They are due to come out tomorrow/tuesday
But if i cut them out myself I would do more than that
Becoz that is what I need to do
It is there taunting me
I have my back to it but it is there, where I left it from last time
My doc would have a fit if i did it myself
(it was not SI that put them there!!)
I have resisted all other SI for a couple of weeks
this week is the most stressful- so much to do, so many stressors, too much
need to resist need to calm need to breathe need to resist need to distract need to..........................................