"I've got a drinking problem, one mouth and two hands..."I don't know if it has anything to do with the bipolar. I don't use that as an excuse. Sometimes the cravings are super bad and I just have to make it through the day knowing that if I give into it I'll be sorry the next day. It never helps for long and I turn into a different person and make unwise choices when drinking or in a drinking period. This Christmas has been hard. I had a relapse after a 13 month dry period but now I've made it since Dec. 19th. Some days I tell myself, "not today I won't do it, but tomorrow, I'll get smashed." Then I wake up the next day and do it over again. Stress and especially emotional stress triggers me.