In some ways I've never come to full acceptance, even though I've been diagnosed bipolar by five mental healthcare providers. When I'm stable, like now, it's easy to minimize the symptoms I've had in the past or think I've over-exaggerated them to my doctors. I sometimes even wonder if I'm bipolar at all. But then I look at my medication list and realize that I'm on all these drugs to prevent those symptoms, and it keeps me from going off them to test the waters. I really don't want to go back to the way I was before I was diagnosed.