Energy is definitely one of the major issues, but I just have to remind myself how important it is to stay active. When I feel unmotivated or lethargic, I just take note of that and proceed on with what I know I should do. Granted I don't do this all the time, but I have been very consistent since my last episode and I am doing much better.

I have my first session of EMDR and am anxious to get these rogue memories integrated properly. I just want to avoid the urge for constant self-referential thinking which in the context of having abuse on the mind can impact your identity. Your amygdala has a major negativity bias, so it's best not to feed it when you're not in a healthy and safe context.