I've been stable for the most part save some depression in November for nine months now on my current meds. I've been out of the hospital for a year and a half. I havent self harmed in almost a year. All these are very big pros.

Biggest con is the invega has caused my prolactin to skyrocket, which has caused me to gain 70+ pounds. This has pushed me into pre diabetes. So that is a huge con. I am going to go to an endocrinologist to see if there's any medication I can take to bring the prolactin down. I don't know if I will be able to lose any weight but I'm going to go moderate low carb in the new year as it's the best diet for diabetes.

I wish I didn't have to choose between my physical health and my mental health. Right now my mental health is more important to me because I struggled so much and caused so much harm to my son and the rest of my family. I'd rather not be so fat but it's not the worst thing in the world. I just don't want to become diabetic.