So today I was out shopping with my friend, who is super tiny, and she decided to go into Dressbarn. I was nervous to go in because I know it's geared toward smaller women, but I didn't want to leave her alone and be rude, so I went in anyways. She found an adorable dress while she was in there. I went into the fitting room with her so that I could take a much needed sit break. As my friend put on her dress, my heart sank at how small she was. The dress she has tried on was a petite small, and it was still too big for her. It just made me feel so fat and ugly and huge, even though I know it shouldn't have. I'm taking steps toward recovery and all, but was a huge confidence crusher for me. I know there are setbacks in the journey to recovery, and that this was one of them, I just... it hurt, you know? More than anyone could understand. Because despite all the progress I've made with loving my body, that voice inside me still tells me that I need to be skinny.