why does my head want me to belief I am powerless? why is it afraid of responsibilty? It tells me that I will not need anyone if I am not powerless and then I will be all alone. It seems very afraid of change. It wants me too keep going round and round in circles. What age is this thinking? what created this fear? What did it learn that to be powerless keeps me from being abandonded? It seems to have been taught that is scary to be independent. Something is so scared inside of finding out that we are capable. It feels safer to think we need people to do for us. What maddness is this??