Even though I had plenty of "recorded evidence" -- such as 10+ notebooks filled with pain and various ways I tried to help myself, and such as a stack of 3x5 cards more than 1/2 inch thick called "Counselors" none of whom helped me for years and years -- I still kept thinking, "I'm fooling myself, and everyone else, and ripping off the government for the benefits I get." But just the other day, I took the bipolar "test" at the top of this forum. And I took the earlier version that follows the version on this page. Well.....I scored "severe" symptoms of bipolar disorder. So....now I know I really am, even though this test is not a formal dx! And by the way, the pdoc that did my initial evaluation after I went to the clinic for a mental health emergency, did a full two hour interview and evaluation of me! That was almost 20 years ago! But it was this test here that finally got me convinced that I'm not fooling myself and everybody else into believe I'm bipolar.