Sunny,

Your post struck me as one where you were faced with opposing views of yourself.

Have you ever felt that way before? I know that i would have freaked out if I read those e-mails and I wonder if you discussed them with T? I wouldn't have been able to contain myself but I know you are better at that then I am!!

For me, it would have made me feel like I did in my childhood when I was expecting something from my mother more than just the required food on the table.

Peace