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Misssy2 · Dec 30, 2016, 07:14 AM

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Originally Posted by TerryL

part of me is not sure if my age has anything to do with my not getting hired. I have been on the "hirer" end of an interview and we chose the person we felt was most qualified, their age did not factor into our decision at all. I think my shyness and low self-esteem could be part of it. i get a bit anxious at having to fit in at work.

I don't think I qualify for disability. I don't currently see a t or pdoc. I would love to but don't know who is a good one. plus I am on Medicaid so the choices are slim. I used to see ts for my guilt but none of them really helped me longterm and I had to pay out of pocket as I didn't have insurance at the time so I did not go too much.

temping has its pros and cons. lately I have had a string of disappointing temp jobs. as mentioned above, I am shy with low self esteem so fitting in is an issue sometimes. although I was always hopeful at the start of each assignment. one never knew what the job or people would be like. a box of chocolates

my guilt over my bunnies' and my mother's deaths is the biggest thing in my life. I don't have human children so I viewed my bunnies as my children. but caring for them can be very stressful as rabbits are very fragile. I tend to get very tunnel-visioned and don't often see the big picture. I missed the signs of their and my mother's illness. the guilt of this has haunted me and is always beneath the surface somewhere. i don't think it will ever go away. thank you for your kindness.

"I missed the signs of their and my mothers illness".

Hi, you are putting WAY too much pressure on yourself

We have to remember that we are not God...and everything happens for a reason. We may not know the reason at the time of events like this...but sometimes that reason is revealed to us.

It could be that the intented reason for losing the mother of the bunnies was that you are in line to save another bunny or another animal.

It could be the intent was to have you quit your job for an upcoming wonderful experience and opportunity.

As far as the passing of your bunnies mother...I wish you could look at it like this...when a human gets sick....sometimes even the human itself ignores the signs of illness (you didn't ignore the signs of the bunnies sickness...you just didn't KNOW). And when a human is sick...everything possible is done to save the human but ya know...sometiimes nothing can be done and it is THAT persons "time" to pass.

For the mother of the bunnies....IF you knew the bunny was sick you may have done something different...but it doesn't mean that the bunny would have been saved....you are not God, you are not going to know possibly if even another bunny or dog is sick...but you DO know that as soon as you find out...you would do anything in your power to assist the animal in getting medical care and that still may not work. Death is a part of all life...and it is not your fault the bunny or your Mom passed on.

What is your guilt over your Mom? What do you think you could have possibly have done different?