part of me is not sure if my age has anything to do with my not getting hired. I have been on the "hirer" end of an interview and we chose the person we felt was most qualified, their age did not factor into our decision at all. I think my shyness and low self-esteem could be part of it. i get a bit anxious at having to fit in at work.

I don't think I qualify for disability. I don't currently see a t or pdoc. I would love to but don't know who is a good one. plus I am on Medicaid so the choices are slim. I used to see ts for my guilt but none of them really helped me longterm and I had to pay out of pocket as I didn't have insurance at the time so I did not go too much.

temping has its pros and cons. lately I have had a string of disappointing temp jobs. as mentioned above, I am shy with low self esteem so fitting in is an issue sometimes. although I was always hopeful at the start of each assignment. one never knew what the job or people would be like. a box of chocolates

my guilt over my bunnies' and my mother's deaths is the biggest thing in my life. I don't have human children so I viewed my bunnies as my children. but caring for them can be very stressful as rabbits are very fragile. I tend to get very tunnel-visioned and don't often see the big picture. I missed the signs of their and my mother's illness. the guilt of this has haunted me and is always beneath the surface somewhere. i don't think it will ever go away. thank you for your kindness.